new beginnings ♥

Well this feels strange. It has been a while since I posted on Fairytale Kiss and if you can’t tell by the photos, a little baby may have something to do with my absence. On the 11th June at 11.42am, Sofia Bella-Rose White was born and our life has been a whirlwind ever since. It is hard to explain what it feels like to have a daughter. Even typing the word daughter feels strange to me but I can’t imagine not knowing her. I wanted to write this post just to give you all an update and just to reflect on the past few months. 

It has been a roller coaster of emotions and although I am finding the sleepless nights pretty tough, I am loving every minute of it. Don’t get me wrong, it hasn’t been easy. I had no experience with babies whatsoever so I had no idea what to expect but surprisingly I do feel like I’m getting to know Sofia with everyday that passes and I do feel confident when it comes to knowing what she wants. I certainly couldn’t say this a few weeks ago, I was constantly watching her sleep to make sure she was okay. She is starting to pay more attention to her surroundings now and she loves being held and walked around the flat, looking at every single thing - even at 4:00 AM.

Believe me, I am struggling with the nighttime feeds and early mornings, coffee is now my best friend and my life saver. 10:00 AM used to be an early start for me when my maternity leave started, but oh, how times have changed. My sleeping pattern is not too sure what to do with itself at the moment but on the plus side, being awake at 5am means I’ve been reading books like no tomorrow. I have managed to read four books in 5 days while I have been feeding and helping Sofia get to sleep. This is a new record for me. After spending all night and day looking after Sofia, I have even more respect for people that look after a newborn baby and also go to work full time as well.

Minus the sleeping routine and my need for heavy duty concealer, being a mum has been a life changing experience. When I’m not with Sofia, I’m thinking about her and talking about her. I still can’t believe I carried her for 8 months and I would spend hours playing music on my stomach and now I play the same songs while I’m holding her in my arms. I know I have a lot to learn when it comes to being a parent but I’m looking forward to learning along the way and I want to capture every moment. When I took these photos she was a few months old and now she is almost 4 months, time is certainly going quickly ♥